Wafflish

Beast of Bodmin Moor 44

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

 

 

Jake

 

 

 

“Christ, if they were any longer I’d be able to ride you…” That, was the inanity unleashed by Jake’s lips while gaping at the most ludicrous set of legs he’d ever seen. Oh hell. Ride him?

Inane it might have been, but its impact on Phin-Jackal battered Jake with a bolt of hot want as liquid pools of darklight all-but swallowed him whole. Phin-Jackal? Idiot, he couldn’t utter that aloud, it was ridiculous. How else was Jake supposed to differentiate between forms until Phin named his jackal self? In the meantime, Phin-Jackal was too long winded and didn’t suit him in the slightest. It wasn’t cute enough, for starters. Perhaps…PJ?  That was better; affectionate without being too twee for words.

Cute? You’ve lost your marbles.

Well, he is…in a floppy-legged, stuffed toy sort of way.

I thought you’d blame the huge, imploring puppy dog eyes.

Not ‘cute’ at all, clearly.

Smart-arse.

Bambi on ice had nothing on PJ. He leapt off the bed in a skitter of said limbs to land in a clatter of claws, then skidded over to the window to leap up and plant his front paws on the ledge. When he pressed his nose to the glass, Jake could feel PJ’s shiver of anticipation as surely as his own. Or Jack’s? He wasn’t sure, which was strange in itself, when the distinction had always felt marked. On that note…it was nothing short of astonishing that Jake was still standing on his own two feet. He’d more than half-expected Jack to take matters into his own paws to…do meeting his mate. Why hadn’t he forced the change? He sure as hell hadn’t changed his mind.

Exactly.

What’s exactly about it?

That much was a dead cert.

What was? That you’d still feel the same, but I might be fuck-witted enough to turn from him? Is that what you’re implying?

Nope.

If you knew I wouldn’t, then what are you yapping on about?

Bonding.

Oh f’fucksakes…

Bonding. He was surrounded by lunatics, of that Jake was certain. He was far less sure how long Jack would—could—suffer his own heroics.

Now I know you’ve lost it. Compliments? Undeserved ones, at that…said ‘heroics’ are as selfish as fuck. For-ever-after goes up in flames if your crazy ass can’t abide PJ. 

And you call me out for self-flagellating?

I am honest. You, are an ass-hat.

What happened to ‘we’?

Exactly. Think that through and you’ll win the blindingly obvious award for penny dropping.

Intolerable, as ever. Doing waiting was undoubtedly driving Jack demented. 

Jake could shift here, in the cottage…but staring out into the night had made all their wishes as clear as a pane of glass. They wanted to go running with the wind…the moonlight seemed to beckon with the promise of a lover’s embrace. But…would PJ be safe out there?

What if he scarpered after catching sight, sound or scent, of something irresistible? He could stumble, fall, get lost, run over…or eaten by a Tyrannosaurus Rex. Oh why not? Jake might as well throw in the latter, if he was going to persist in being preposterous. It wasn’t as if they need worry about calling a vet if PJ had a…mishap. An oncoming truck could shatter his bones—briefly—and he wouldn’t wind up as roadkill. Jake just…couldn’t help it. The very thought of PJ, injured, made him feel violently sick. 

PJ turned his fluffy head to regard Jake with the stargazy eyes he’d fallen in love with; their bottomless depths ablaze with amber flame. He could hear the hectic skitter of PJ’s heart, sense the wild joy thrilling through his veins, scent his excitement…and yet, it was laced with worry too. Worry? It was too specific to mistake, even amidst a riot of smells.  PJ flicked his gaze from Jake’s shoulder to his face before hesitantly—as if he feared recoil—pressed his brow bone into the curve of Jake’s neck. His fur was a silken caress exuding cassia warmth…earthier now with nutmeg undertones.

The need to be near him, to hold him, was so intense Jake didn’t think once—let alone twice—about drawing PJ close, tucking his overgrown pup into an armpit. He wanted to wrap him in cotton wool and keep him safe forever. Phin had survived the shift…but could PJ survive himself? His own ‘excesses’…enhanced? A disconcerting thought, to say the least. F’chrissakes, Jake was clucking like a mother hen—rather than hungering to spit feathers after a satisfying snack—he really needed to get a grip.

You said it.

We.

I think I preferred you in denial.

Contrary mutt.

 Why change the habits of a lifetime…just sayin’.

Jake burrowed his fingers into the downy fur of PJ’s belly, eliciting a soft huff of sound, steeped in bone-deep pleasure. Even the air seemed to still, cocooning them in a silence as potent as the promise beckoning them into the night.

*

PJ stirred first, lifting his head to spear Jake with such liquid longing it was impossible to demur. “’Kay. Stay close though. Promise?”

That molten gaze stilled to solemnity, alongside a nod. About a surge of adrenaline before blazing with a joy so incandescent it snatched Jake’s breath away. Hot on the heels of an elation too intense for his human self to contain for much longer. 

PJ pushed his paws off the window sill and sort of…skittered around to lollop over to the door. Quite why he appeared to have about eight legs, Jake knew not, but the cottage was likely to collapse around their ears if PJ didn’t get the hang of them sharpish. A thought that made a (frankly batshit) grin flash across Jake’s face as he tugged the bedroom door open.

“Oh gawd…” he groaned. Behold, the staircase. “I’m going to stab myself if I don’t get a grip…I want to pick you up, so you don’t fall down the stairs.”

PJ all-but snickered, about a split second before shooting past Jake to launch himself at said deathtrap. His gangly form stretched in a gracious arc as he took a flying leap through the air. Jake flinched with pain when PJ crashed into the wall at the bottom with a yelp and crumpled to the floor in a pile of legs. Akin to the collapse of a furskin teepee.

“Fuck!” Jake cleared the staircase in a single bound to crouch beside him, heart hammering in horror. It damn near stopped dead when PJ remained utterly still. Jake broke out in a sheen of sweat, which possibly evaporated as steam when PJ’s head lolled back, tongue hanging out, legs akimbo, playing possum. “You…” he managed to splutter before PJ…sprang to life to slather Jake’s cheek with an excessive slurp of slobber. 

“Eurgh!” he protested, raising his arm to swipe it off…and realised, rather belatedly, that he was still starkers. “Crap, I’d intended to head out human for ‘man walking dog’ purposes, but it’s pointless getting dressed.”

Dropping to his haunches, Jake cupped PJ’s face. “Don’t ‘do forgetting’. Okay…? You promised.” His voice rang with a resonance Jake hadn’t intended, but instantly recognised. Midnight eyes warmed, gleaming amber flame, then PJ nudged Jake’s cheek with his muzzle before glancing down the hallway. “C’mon…let’s go,” Jake agreed, rising to his feet. After following him to the back door, PJ raised his glittering gaze to ensnare Jake’s. Then winked and very deliberately, lifted a paw to scratch at it. Like a dog bursting for a pee. Or walkies.

“Y’pillock…” Jake grinned, reaching out to ruffle his ears; chuckling to himself when eternal eyes started rolling back in his head. Thus, negating the need to dodge another lavish lick while letting them out.

The night air hit Jake with the all impact of a triple tequila slammer. Exhilaration flooded his veins as he watched PJ lift his face to snuffle at it, sooty lashes gliding shut to savour its scents for the first time. An expression so sublime, it was far too much for Jack to take without finally claiming his mate.

 

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Wafflish

Beast of Bodmin Moor 43

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

 

 

 

Phin

 

 

“Phin…” 

Ooh, that velvet voice; richer, smoother, more Bailey’s-Irish-Creamy than ever before. Resonant with warmth, worry and…wonderment? Phin did dragging in a deep breath, filling his lungs with the sumptuous scent his whole self craved. Jake. His Jake. Waiting; heart heavy with regret…even as it did soaring skywards. As contrary as ever. Mine.

Blimey…why hadn’t Jake told him it would do feeling like that? Phin had sort of expected to experience something along the lines of a scene from Alien, with a bit less blood ‘n’ guts, and lots more fur. Instead, it had felt like doing too much excessive coming; ablaze with an agony of bliss as his every fibre of his being did exploding.

Phin’s eyes flicked open, before he’d done cobbling together the wherewithal to do so. Hmm…Jake. Gleaming gold, hair a hundred hues of umber, bedazzling blues luminous with topaz intensity. Fingers proffered his waynot flinching from Phin as he’d feared—despite there being no trace of revulsion in the whiskied warmth of Jake’s scent. Phin wanted to do licking his skin, taste the mellifluous flavours in that symphony of smells. Do snuffling at him, everywhere. 

It was most odd to do staring down his own nose; as wet and shiny as rubber in the rain. When Phin’s snoot brushed skin, it was all but blitzed with taser sensations that did snatching his breath away. Jake. Mine. Mate. Moonlight lapping the proud bone structure of his noble face, a single rogue tendril of hair falling over one eye, quivering like a liquorice lace. 

The skin snuffle made Jake’s heady scent do transferring to Phin’s nose; a wondrous thing when the whiff would linger there to do licking later. A thought that made Phin’s tongue do lolling out in a laugh like Jack’s. He couldn’t resist returning the wink that had confirmed Jake’s presence, despite the fact he’d looked a very lot like ‘Jack’.

Phin hadn’t done realising just how true those suspicions had been. With every passing second, it felt clearer that he hadn’t done changing a jot. Inside. Having scarce known his new self for five minutes, there was much to do discovering, but Phin did feel uncannily akin to a furrier Phineas Finley. That, was his mum’s fault, she had a bit of a thing for certain Irish Members, so the minx had made the most of her new surname to do tinkering with Trollope. Crikey, Phin’s marbles were scattered all over the shop, sending random snippets skittering hither ‘n’ thither.

His dangling tongue made Jake’s lips do twerking with recognition, an expression so scrumptious, Phin couldn’t resist a little lap. Blimey’n’bejeezus…his taste buds almost did detonating. He seemed to have a helluva lot of them. On a veery lot of tongue. It made Jake splutter a snort and swipe a palm across his face, which was a tad soggy with slurp, but he didn’t seem to do minding overmuch. Phin had very lot of everything, in truth. Fur, teeth, legs. He did, in fact, have six of those—but not all at once, obviously—that would be excessive. The legs Phin was wearing couldn’t p’raps claim to be ‘moderate’ either. He hadn’t done standing up yet, but surely Jack’s legs didn’t look like that.

Jack. Phin could feel him. Doing Waiting. Just as Jake had promised when Phin was afraid to do changing. Afraid that the too muchness might injure Jake. That might have been daft when Jake would o’course do healing…but that didn’t make the fear of hurting him any less horrific.

“Fuck, look at you…” That seemed to fall from Jake’s lips unbidden, as if had done slipping out to air itself, without asking first. 

Nevertheless, Phin gave himself a quick glance over, perchance he’d misread matters and something had gone amiss. All seemed to be present and correct, so he returned his gaze to Jake’s face and did tilting his head in an enquiring sort of way, hoping Jake might elaborate a bit. 

How Phin wished he knew what Jake was thinking. Feelings were another fish of kettles; he could do scenting many, many, things…too much to identify so soon. One niff was elevated beyond all others—in the nose of the beholder anyhoo—the floaty whiff of relief. Sort of similar to ‘fresh linen’ Febreze…rather than sour with repulsion, as Phin had feared. It was more…complex than simple relief; entwined with another, like strands in a skein of embroidery silk. A scent as heady as a balmy sea breeze…Exhilaration?

Phin mustn’t do letting himself get too giddy on it (even if his supersnoot spoke true) or do making mountains from molehills. That was one of Phin’s very best things…even before being handed a superpowered spade. ‘Acceptance’ was a wonderful thing, but it was far, far from…forever. He was terrified to let himself do sky writing pipedreams about, even in his head.

“I…feared…I might resent you, but I don’t…” Jake mused, at last; Phin had a tangled bag of knitting that needed sorting. “I didn’t expect you to still seem so…Phin. But I do, which is weird, when I don’t feel…well, I’ve always considered Jack in me. Not me…and yet, your eyes, they’re his. I can see Phin…you. Fuck.” 

Jake’s words had done confirming some of Phin’s suspicions (he was a mannerly jackal and that sounded po-liter than confirmed stuff he knew damn well). Somehow. He could feel Jack’s presence too; sort of separate but the same, which was weird, when Phin sure didn’t feel like a passenger. Whereas Jake made Jack do sitting in a sidecar like Gromit while he was driving…did they switch places when it was Jack’s turn to do steering? Jake, decked out in a crash-helmet and goggles and sporting a flappaway scarf was an image so irresistible it made Phin’s tongue do lolling in a laugh again. 

“What are you yukking it up about?” Jake chuckled, reaching out to ruffle Phin’s ears.

Oooooh…it was more luscious than the shiversome feel of fingertips trailing across the skin at Phin’s nape. He couldn’t do stopping the snuff that flitted free alongside a little whimper. He wanted…he wasn’t actually sure; toomuch to untangle. It was a gnarly knot of need, one he couldn’t be bothered to do unpicking, when it made far more sense to follow his nose.

Phin did want one thing above all else. His entire body ached; yearning for Jake to do wrapping his arms around his furry self and say it was okay…he still wanted Phin. He had lots more longings; to run with the wind, to feel the earth and grass beneath his paws…the rippling glide of muscle over bone. To breathe the salty clean scent of seaside air…and scamper across the moors with Jack. He was hungry, too. Ravenous, for everything; to taste, touch, smell, see, hear…feel… Do experiencing the world through his new eyes. Phin had sprung to his paws before he’d finished thinking that. 

Jake’s instincts made him do jumping back a bit…but he was a tad too naked to have made pouncing seem a splendid plan. Particularly when Phin couldn’t be sure which way his legs might do skittering. Swiping Jake with an unwieldy paw or claw and despoiling his skin would be unbearable, even for the seconds it would take to heal. It was gleaming burnished gold in the dusky light of darkness…far too beautiful to believe the delirious things insisted by his hazy rememberings.

“Strewth…” Jake looked a smidge startled and did blinking a bit. Daftie, when he’d sure as strewth seen a jackal before. Phin did tilting his head again and donned a befuddled face. “Your bloody legs…” Jake was gesticulating at said limbs as if Phin had got carrots, or sausages instead of four furry appendages.  “Christ, if they were any longer I’d be able to ride you.”

Phin’s eyeballs almost did plopping on the bed. Blimey, now there was a thought worth savouring, in any way, shape, or form. The rush of fizzy anticipation that did zipping through Phin’s system made him do…sort of staggering to the floor. Whoa…a wee bit wibbly. It was not a jot like one of Jack’s limber leaps…more akin to tottering about in his mum’s high heels. When Phin was five…or um, thereabouts. He appeared to have a lot more legs than four suggested, flailing off on a whim. 

He wanted to look through the window, so Phin did um, plonking his front paws on the sill for a peer into the night. He could do hearing it call to him. Another little whimper escaped when he pressed his nose to the glass and snuffed out a breath to make a cloudy patch. How he wished he could do drawing a heart in it for Jake. A snoot-smudge would be a bit rubbish.

Phin’s senses went off like an air-raid siren when Jake did taking a step forward. One more would bring him to Phin’s side. His entire self seemed to do exhaling when Jake’s proximity thrilled through his veins. Bewitching blue; darker, deeper now, flecked with flakes of gold, ensnared Phin’s gaze. Like falling into lagoons kissed by sunshine.

Despite fearing that Jake would do flinching from him, the need to nestle closer was suffocating. So Phin risked pressing the top of his head into the curve of Jake’s neck, praying he wouldn’t be pushed away. Never had Phin done underestimating Jake more. Not even by considering him a mere human. Jake just raised his arm and did curving it over Phin’s back, tucking him in tighter. His palm was a warm weight on Phin’s furry midriff. The thrum-thrum of his heart was the most wonderful sound in all the world, as strong and sure as Jack’s noble stance. It sent Phin’s insides all pralines ‘n’ creamy with pleasure. 

Jake didn’t do speaking, he simply stood, holding Phin close as they stared into the night, sultry with starlight and promise.

 

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Wafflish

The Beast of Bodmin Moor 42

 

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

 

 

Phin

 

Nudge nudge. Ooh…Phin didn’t want to do waking up. His delicious dream was just getting to the best bit, but someone was doing shaking him with ‘c’mon sleepy head’ insistence. That wasn’t so strange, but the prodding seemed to be…inside himself, which was a wee bit weird. 

Trying to ignore it didn’t do working, Phin’s inner frolics were having none of his lazing about lark, even if his outsides were as cosy as can be and quite content to do snoozing the day away. Scoundrels. As if to up the ante, their revelries did spreading to his skin, which set off a ticklish fit of the fidgets. That sounded far too daft to be true, so p’raps…someone was feather-dustering him?

“Phin…” That velvety voice. Impossible to do ignoring—even if Phin wanted to—he didn’t. Mine

“Jake…” A slow smile did spreading across Phin’s face. Now that was a sight worth prising his eyelids apart for. Plink. Quick as a flash, they flared open, like a till drawer. Um, that was a smidge random, but no matter…hmm. Bewitching blues stared back, ablaze with…worry…wonder…fear… What was Jake afraid of? He smelled most oddsome… like a bowl of whiskey trifle with curry sauce. Phin was willing to do giving it a bash if Jake was serving it up but…blimey, that was one hell of a curried fruit ‘n’custard cocktail. 

“Are you okay?” A lot better than Jake, that was for sure, who seemed a mite green about the gills. P’raps his trifle had gone off.

“Hmm…very. Did you do feather dustering me? I woke up all tickly.”

Jake looked a smidge incredulous—it had been a bit of a daft question, Phin had to admit—Jake was perched on the edge of the bed beside him and not waving a duster of any description about. He looked anx— Ponderings that puttered to a halt when Phin  realised he could not only see anxiousness etched on Jake’s face. He could do seeing full stop. Despite it being dark outside…and the floodlight wasn’t switched on. Ooh

Had he done changing? Phin glanced down at himself. He looked much the same—except for his skin, which was…pretty. Sort of shimmery, like moonstone rather than matt milk white.

“I’m still here,” he noted, mostly to himself, a mite surprised to be so, which was a bit bonkers when that would mean he’d done sleeping through the shift. Duh. It was just that…it felt sort of…wrong to still be his bog-standard self. Had something gone amiss? “Hmm…you look luscious…” Lifting his hand, Phin did brushing aside the tendril of hair obscuring Jake’s right eye, it felt like spun silk slithering through his fingers.

“Your last observation suggests you can’t see straight, let alone—”

“I can…even though it’s dark, so there. You’re too distracting to do bothering to read the spines of books. I feel most oddsome…sort of shivery. In my bones, but my blood’s doing boiling. Blimey, I’m hot,” Phin did huffing to fuff his fringe away from his forehead, which was stuck to it with sweat.

“Phin—”

“Fuck!” A flare of flame did shooting up Phin’s spine, snatching his breath away. It wasn’t a fun feeling—like one of those weird neck cricks—but all over. His skin was more uncomfy, far too tight and too hot, so he felt sort of shrink-wrapped inside it. As if Phin was too much for his very own self.

“Phin…I’m sorry…” Jake’s eyes blazed full beam bright, iridescent with fear and suppressed fury…something else too. Longing? He smelled heavenly; his sultry sunshine scent as thick and heady as opium fumes.

“No sorries…I’m okay it’s just, Jake, I need—” Phin’s words were snaffled when a scorching spasm did zipping through his system, twanging his tendons taut to make his muscles do clenching.

“Phin…” Jake’s low, rumbly purr did tugging the coiled centre of heat in the pit of Phin’s belly; it needed him too. So much so, it started to do…unfurling in a silent shimmer, suffusing every fibre of his being. Filling Phin up with all-consuming rightness when it did flooding his body.

“I…Jake, I feel too right but all wrong…” Phin was aflame with too much excessive to contain. He ached to do letting it go, but was tangled in twisty knots; too tight and ratcheting tighter still, binding him in barbed wire snarls, trapping him inside himself.

“I’m scared…what if do going excessive? What if I turn out Too Much? Jake…I can’t bear to do hurting you.”

“Phin I could kill whoever drilled that into your head. No More Too Much. I’ll heal, f’chrissakes.” Springing to his feet, Jake did yanking at the belt of his robe before shrugging it off to do puddling at his feet in a soft sigh of fabric. Then stood, naked; glimmering gold, backlit by the moonbeams beckoning Phin into the night. Light and shadow stroking his skin, caressing it’s hard lines and sinuous curves…he was magnificent. Mine.

Jake did diving atop Phin before he could blink, engulfing him in a headrush of lush scent and lean, sinewy strength. Covering him—as if to do protecting him from a bomb blast—when surely Phin was the bomb about to blow? A fear he forgot to do fretting about when Jake crushed his mouth down to lay waste to Phin’s lips with a blitzkrieg of kisses. So hot, hungry, Jake must have done holding back so much more than he’d ached to take; needed with a ferocity that made such restraint astounding. The need driving Phin was an immense press too insistent to do denying. It would have been impossible; he was too punch drunk on lust to resist the irresistible. Phin tangled his fingers into tousled waves, revelling in the rasps of sound that did spilling from Jake’s lips. Anchored, adrift in a torrent of never, ever, too much. 

“Phin….please,” Jake did lifting his head, ensnaring Phin with the laser luminosity of blue brilliance. “Let go…it will hurt more if you don’t…we need you. I-Jack…love you, both—no—all of you. Jack wants—oh crap, must I? He’s ‘doing waiting for you’…”

The last words did ripping from Jake’s lips as if…he mightn’t allow them to leave otherwise. Jack. My Jack. Wanting…waiting… Phin could do sensing him so strongly he seemed to hear him—inside his head—as if he were holding a seashell to his ear with words whispering from it, filling him up. Seeping into every fibre of his being; heart, body, soul. Mate.

“Jaaack!” Phin howled when his spine did a sudden spasm so violent it surged off the bed in an arc that sent Jake flying off his body—unless he’d done flipping himself off—Phin knew not. “Jake!”

“I’m okay…” He was beside the bed in a flash, all frantic eyes and sinews straining to hold himself still…despite the fact Phin could feel the fury that wanted to do razing the world to the ground. For him...them? No—that sounded as daft as it felt. For Phin.

Scrunching his eyes tight shut, Phin did focusing on the strong, sure, pounding of Jake’s heart and the skittering of his own as it scampered to do catching up. Then did concentrating on the very thing he’d spent forever trying to suppress…um, mostly, unless he forgot to do remembering. Flinging wide the floodgates, Phin did throwing himself headfirst into the flames of too much to let loose. 

“Jack…” Phin sighed when his muscles did rippling in a free-flowing stretch, filling him with an agony of bliss. His entire self did shrieking as it shattered on the rocks of excruciating ecstasy, engulfing Phin in the light-shot lustre of never, ever, enough…

 

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Jake

 

“I could kill whoever drilled that into your head.” Fury blistered through Jake’s body, propelling him to his feet with a snarl. “No More Too Much. I’ll heal, f’chrissakes.”

Unable to stand stifling human niceties a second longer, Jake shrugged off their last shroud and sprang forwards, fuelled by pure instinct. The skin beneath Jake’s was an extravagance of seething heat—hotter than their own—aflame with steel- trap constraint. Even Phin’s lips were comparatively cool when Jake captured them, but the tongue that darted between his teeth was febrile fire, as feverish as his kisses. That had to count as justification for Jake’s assuredly lost plot…which starred a Phin tethered too tight to shift. Wilfully so. 

Why the fuck is he holding out? Resisting the very thing he’d claimed to want? Jake sure as shit hadn’t wanted him to suffer this fate. Fears that had been rebuffed by Phin with nary a care for consequences. Mr Neil had never had a hope in hell. 

The jackal wasn’t straining for freedom despite—against—Phin’s wishes. His scent alone made that an indubitable fact. Phin had not done changing his mind. Just as Jack had promised. 

Still sure?

Twice as. 

“Phin….” Jake pleaded, after dragging himself from the kiss.

Jack…Help Me. Jake felt his irises flare and saw blue flame reflected back in bottomless brown. Now flecked with amber fire…in readiness.

 “Let go…it will hurt more if you don’t…we need you. I-Jack…love you, both—no—all of you. Jack wants—oh crap, must I?” You’ll pay for this, you mangy mutt. “He’s ‘doing waiting for you’…”

Au contraire…we’re about to reap our rewards, so suck it up. 

Jake threw himself backwards to land sure-footed on the floor a split-second before “Jaaack!” clawed the walls when Phin threw back his head with a howl and an abrupt spasm seized his body. “Jake!” His name, full of fear, for him. Phin didn’t seem afraid of the jackal self whose scent would soon overshadow his own. Jake could sense its presence as keenly as a jackal in the room. 

He is? Well, I can’t see him, can I. 

None so blind as those who will not see…just sayin’.

Smartarse.

“I’m okay.” Jake assured him, stroking the sweat-soaked strands of hair from his brow. Phin’s kiss-swollen lips curved in a breathtaking smile as gold flecked brown glittered with relief. Then his eyelids slammed shut.

“Jack…” Phin sighed. A sound Jack heard as ‘I’m coming…’ Somehow. A soft whimper slipped free but the jackal remained still, alert—doing guarding his mate—rather than riding roughshod over Jake to snatch back the reins.

The shudders vibrating through that beloved body made Jake feel murderous as he stood, primed to pounce; heal, save, whatever it took… 

He felt every agonising second as if they shared the same body. Inhabited every teeth-gritting grind of bone on bone. Flinched when Phin’s joints popped with a god-awful squelch and twang of tendons. Winced in pain when endless limbs dislocated under duress. Wept silent tears as he stood sentry. It took scant minutes, it felt like a forever of staccato heartbeats. When a torrent of pain and pleasure consumed Jake’s senses, he was staggered, astounded. Excruciating ecstasy, so soon…? Jake could only recall a steel-jaw grip of terror too intense for fuck all else from that first shift. 

The flow of Phin’s fur was breath-snatching; shades of desert sand-gold-grey, dusted with black and stippled with white. The relief was euphoric…for an eternal second or so, Jake’s brain went blank. Utter white-out. Even Jack was stunned into silence. 

Time stood still in the heart-stuttering hush of the aftermath. Even the air seemed tranquil, languid, in the calm after the storm, as if it was too glutted to bestir itself.

Jake felt…giddy with relief. Suck it up, party pooperbe ‘light-headed’ if y’must. We know different…

Holding his breath, Jake approached the body curled in the carnage wreaked upon the bed. His Phin. Jake could still feel him, he realised. He hadn’t expected to, having feared losing him somehow; that the essence of the man he loved would be stolen by the creature who’d snatched him away. Their Phin-jackal…so, so, beautiful. Jake’s fingers were tingling with a longing to touch silky soft fur as he sank to his haunches and reached out a hesitant hand.

“Phin…” he murmured.

His fluffy head snapped up and those eyes—his eyes—midnight dark and sprinkled with starlight…and full, full of all Jake had been terrified would be lost. Brimming with wonder, love, longing… The magic and mischief that so entranced them with one whiff on the wind.

A strangely tentative snuffle of Jake’s hand was succeeded by a nose butt…then Phin-jackal let his tongue loll out in a daft grin. A very deliberate wink, mirroring Jake’s from a lifetime ago made him grin. Like a loon. Then, the miscreant inclined his head, blinding Jake with puppy eyes. About a snicker before swiping a slurpy lick, as lavish as it was gleeful, across Jake’s face. 

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Wafflish

The fabulous Frost Fair & a bit of Beast (41.5)

 

Good morning…

Today, I’ve been honoured by an invite to the fabulous Frost Fair at the brilliant Penny Blake’s blog. There are authors aplenty to be found, hosting a stall to show off their wares and best of all, simply be a part of the festivities. 🥰

Penny Blake’s Annual Frost Fair

My stall at the Frost Fair

 

 

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The Beast of Bodmin Moor 

 

 

 

Jake

 

 

“’Jake…?” His name was a brush of breath at Jake’s lips, its scent as serene as it was sultry. Raw cassia bark, richer, rougher, now…yet still as soft as a dusting of cinnamon sugar.  “Whatever happens, even if it does killing me, I need you to know…I wanted it. ’Kay?’”

“Phin, you won’t die, I won’t let you…” Jake promised. “No matter what.”

“I trust you…both yous…” Sighed with a smudgy smile as his eyelids fluttered shut and Phin succumbed to sleep.

*

“Whatever happens…even if…I wanted it…wanted it…’kay? ”

So soft words that had lulled Jake into believing him. That all would be well…this was meant to be…Phin would be as fine as Jack swore he would. For the briefest, blindest, of moments as those stargazy eyesablaze with all he’d ever craved and did not deserveheld his own, Jake had allowed himself to hope.

So, so, stupid. Shit for brains fuckwit.

Whatever happens…even if…I wanted it…wanted it…’kay? Evenifevenif…

The soundtrack to Jake’s relentless pacing. Paused, purely to have a swift wash and Phin-proof the room. As if in anticipation of a toddler…or puppy, oh gawd. No glass, lamps, nothing sharp to stumble against. Ludicrous, but it gave Jake something to do. Other than pace. Or rake impatient fingers through his hair and fret, like an expectant father. Keeping watch…as he waited. Waited and watched. Pacing back and forth, to and fro like a bloody pendulum, fuelled by jittery energy and the relentless echo resounding ’round his head. Whatever happens…even if even if….

”Over my dead bloody body,” Jake muttered. What!?

Quit flapping. He will be fine.

How the hell can you be sure? What if…Jack, what if something goes wrong…what if—

It won’t.

How the fuck do you know? Did I miss the part where you become omnipotent?

Christ, you’re cranky. Why won’t you listen?

Listening to you did this to him, that’s why. I should never have laid a finger on him.

What about Phin? You can’t dismiss his wishes as if they don’t count. He wanted you…just as he wants this. Us.

He thinks he does. NOW. ‘He’ll be fine, he wants this’…hollow words to fob me off. That was then, this is now. HOW DO YOU KNOW!? Instinct? That’s not good enough. I don’t care if it’s ‘all you’ve got at the mo’. I know you love him, too. You’re talking to yourself, by the way. Just sayin’. Shut up.

Jack…? How much longer must we wait? Midnight or thereabouts…? Can you be a bit more bloody specific? Can’t I what? Sense it? Close my eyes…? F’fucksakes.

Jake stopped pacing. Then stood, eyes shut. Like a lunatic. In order to ‘sense’ the…dusk descending, drawing its veil over the day…the shift in the air. The shift is in the air…how romantic. Stop smirkingfrom day to night, smart arse.

Phin…I won’t let you down. I love you loveyouloveyou. Clenching his fists, Jake recommenced pacing, a forever of empty seconds filled with feverish footsteps. Fury, fear, regret and rage. Futile. His own hammering heartbeat. Phin’s, pounding far too fast. 

Jake had lost the plot. He was talking to himself, pacing about, waiting for his mate…to wake up and turn into a goddamn jackal. Jake clearly needed a drink.

Calm down. I am calm. Calm? Yes, calm. I am a sea of serenity. Clearly.

Fuck. Jake snapped his head up. He was beside the bed in the blink of an eye. Phin was still lying on his side, facing the window; angel face bathed in darklight, sooty lashes fanning pearlescent skin. Long, lean limbs gleaming like moonlit alabaster. So peaceful, so unearthly beautiful, it snatched their breath away.

Focus. Crap. Inhale. Slow. Steady. Deep. Jake filled his lungs with the scent that had snatched him from his…raving. Reverie. A smell so potent it had a presence; he could almost see it shimmering off Phin’s skin. No, he could see tiny tremors skittering beneath it. Sort of similar to the twitch of fur whilst dreaming. Running the length of Phin’s body in little ripples, every tiny hair trembling to attention.

“Phin…” His name fell from Jake’s lips as a prayer. Reaching out tentative fingertips, he brushed the scorching curve of an ivory shoulder. Phin’s eyes flared wide. Branding Jake with a brown that blazed amber flame. Eternal. Filled with forever.

“Jake…”

 
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Wafflish

Beast of Bodmin Moor 41

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

Phin

 

 

After being dispatched to do ‘freshening up a bit’ while Jake cooked their brunch—then scoffing it as if it would be whisked away any second—Phin felt strangely sleepy. That was weird when he never felt tired, let alone during the day. ‘Sleepy’ wasn’t quite the right word though…groggy? A deep, dragging exhaustion, a smidge similar to staying awake for a few nights when he had done remembering to take his tablets.

“Are you feeling okay?” Jake asked, scrutinising Phin’s face with searchlight intensity.

“Yes, ‘cept…I can scarce keep my eyes open, which is spooky. I never do napping during the day.” 

“I conked out for hours before…first shifting. I thought I must be knackered after my Glastonbury…excesses, so I just dumped my stuff in the hall and staggered off to bed. I was out for hours…it was after midnight by the time I woke.”

“Did you do changing then?” Phin kept his voice whisper soft, hoping not to disrupt Jake’s rememberings.

“Yeah…I felt…dreadful. ‘As if someone had walked over my grave’ is the best turn of phrase I can rustle up…which isn’t the least helpful. Who the hell thought that up?” Jake groaned.

“A vampire? I can’t think who else might have one to fancy a nap in. That doesn’t do seeming as daft a suggestion as it did a couple of days ago. Oddly ’nuff.” Phin grinned.

“I don’t suppose it does,” Jake chuckled. “My whole body was clammy, not so much shuddering, more as if…ripples were running through it. Deeper than skin surface…bone deep. My eyes snapped open, alert in an instant, which was weird in itself. More so, when I should have woken with the humdinger of all hangovers. Stranger still, I woke staring into a darkness…that wasn’t. Dark, I mean—I could even read the print on the spines of the books on the shelf. The tap was dripping, but I felt somehow sure it was coming from the kitchen, rather than the bathroom…because of the distance the sound waves had travelled.”

“Did you still do blaming the acid you thought you’d taken at Glastonbury…?” 

“Yeah…it seemed the best explanation for everything being brighter, stronger, louder, that last day. I’d figured it would fade, wear off…but it was more intense when I woke. If I hadn’t taken some freaky shit or other, it would’ve felt as if I was going insane.”

“Were you scared?” He must have been, surely? It was a daft question, but Jake seemed to be doing skirting around how he’d felt in favour of a mosey through memories from a not-a-jot free festival.

“Not beforehand, no…I felt oddly detached…as if I was watching myself from a distance.” That’s what Jake had been gazing into as he’d told his story; before snapping back to the present to do fixing Phin with blowtorch blues. “Is that how you feel?”

“No…not now. I used to feel that way, as if I was doing bobbing about in a bubble watching a world that wasn’t mine. As if I didn’t do belonging…I was just a jumble of bits that never did fitting…anywhere. I felt more comfy on my own, so I didn’t have to do worrying about too much or doing something amiss. Until I met Foxy…You. I feel righter now, less…lost. Does that do making sense?”

“Yes, it does…instinctively, at least. I keep blanking them—Jack—for telling me what I want to believe, which makes me suspicious on too good to be true grounds. Now there’s a turn of phrase that’s never felt truer…” Jake sighed with a valiant attempt a wry smile. “It seems impossible that anyone could want this…me… even accounting for the fact you’re far from ‘anyone’.” 

“You don’t have to do fudging,” Phin assured him, “I know I’m inside out and back to front.”

“That’s uncannily accurate,” Jack chuckled. “Not in a negative way, it’s just that it seems as if your senses are set to constant reboot…so you see, feel—even think—things for the first time, every time. As if that doesn’t sound stupid enough…sometimes I’m afraid you’ll bleed, if I speak—or even look at you—too sharply.” Jake did dipping his head, which made his hair fall forwards to shield his face. Daftie, when his blushes smelled scrumptious, as if they’d do tasting like strawberry milkshake.

“If it makes you feel less of a ‘nana…? I may have done checking,” Phin admitted.

“To see if you were bleeding?” Jake risked a peep from under his lashes, he was a very pretty shade of pink. For a fearsome beastie, an’ all. 

“I wasn’t. Well, not then, anyhoo.”

“Afterwards.” The word landed with a hollow thud on the table between them, echoing with…Phin leaned in to do snuffling the subtle shift in the scent seeping from Jake’s skin. 

“What’s that whiff? I can’t tell, except it’s strange and I need to do licking you.”

 

***

 

 Jake

 

“Afterwards.” It wasn’t a guess, Jake was certain of it. Not because he’d seen the evidence of all Phin had tried to expunge that night, but because he felt the slash of memory as if he’d taken a blade to his own body. Jake did not check to see if he was bleeding—that would have been ridiculous—the scent of the blood that accompanied it was not his own. Phin’s brow knitted in puzzlement, then he leaned in to sniff at Jake, with small, suspicious snuffles, as if he might’ve gone off. Pinpricks of pleasure still skittered across Jake’s skin, scything through the lunacy of it all.

“What’s that whiff? I can’t tell, except it’s strange and I need to do licking you.”

“Memory, maybe? Pain, perhaps your own blood…” A shaft of lust sparked along Jake’s spine when Phin started lapping at his earlobe before tracing its shell with his tongue. “Gnrrrr…” 

“It’s doing fading now, you smell…mmmm…” Phin murmured, across moist flesh, making every tiny hair thrill to attention and a shiver of longing scorch through his veins. “You taste…” He smudged his lips across Jake’s cheek to place a kiss at the corner of his mouth “…luscious…” then trailed a featherlight tongue across its seam to mirror their so soft press. “Thank you…” was a whisper of breath that stole his own away. Even had Jake been in full possession of his faculties, he wouldn’t have known what Phin could be thankful for. His chances of regaining them any time soon was…

Never, I hope. I far prefer you with your nuts in a knot. Loath as I am to interrupt, I suggest you move this upstairs…before Phin keels over. 

“You have nothing to be grateful for…” Jake clasped his face and pressed their foreheads together, trying to focus beyond the icy fingers of fear clutching his heart.  “C’mon, let’s get you back to bed…”

“That’s not going to be as fun as it sounds, is it…?” Phin’s sigh was resigned, rather than recalcitrant, which was something to be thankful for.

”You’ll have forever for that, if you want it…” Jake promised, “…but right now, you need rest, you’re exhaling exhaustion.”

“Okay…” Another sigh, tinged with a tut. “I would do pouting, ‘cept I am a bit pooped.”

“C’mon…” Jake couldn’t help but grin, the scamp was far too adorable for their welfare. All…four of them.

“I’m coming… dammit, that won’t be, either. I might be furry next time it happens…I wonder if it does feeling different…” Phin was starting to slur his words, like certain ‘regulars’ at turfing out time in The Albion. About ‘one for the road’ before falling off the barstool. After persuading Phin to his feet, Jake bent to scoop him up and cart him off to the bedroom before he dreamed up any more mischief to delay matters.  “This is like being whisked away to your lair without the wicked-way part to look forward to. Humph,” Phin chuntered between titters at finding himself transported thus.

“I’ll give you humph…” Jake chuckled.

“I wish you would…’cept I feel a bit floppy…” A huge yawn swallowed the rest of whatever Phin might’ve been about to say, which was probably for the best when—lolloping limbs aside—he sure as hell wasn’t elsewhere. “Hmm…that’s lusciously cool…” he sighed with a smile like a smear of cream after being deposited on the duvet. He’d only donned a pair of pants but was still burning up. Not too badly, Jake judged. Yet. “I’ve done remembering what I wanted to say…” Phin told him, peering up through a veil of feathery lashes. “I’m ever so hot…where was I?”

“You’ve remembered…” Jake supplied, stretching out beside the extravagance that was Phin and propping his head on a bent elbow. 

“Oh…that’s it…you seem to think I’m too calm about doing changing…when really, it’s more that…I’m not fussed about that part. It’s not real to me yet…I’ve never done it, so I can’t do picturing it. I’m comfy with the important bit—being the same as you—that’s what matters most. If I try to do focusing on the rest, my head just shrugs, cos it knows I can do enduring worse to get what I want.”

“As stubborn as fuck,” Jake smirked, although his brain was whirring away, busy reconciling his assumptions with Phin’s reality.

“We’re not so different, after all…” His smile was too smudgy for ‘smug’ but a whiff of glee was tinging his scent when he rolled onto his side and threw an excessive leg across Jake’s own. It’s weight throbbed through his body, thrilling to his toes. “Will you tell me the rest of your changing story…I can’t do keeping my eyes open,” Phin noted with another luxurious yawn. 

“‘Kay… I was just lying there, staring around the room, stunned by the realisation that could see in the bloody dark. I’m not sure which came first, but my muscles started contracting in tight hot spasms—clenching like fists—and my temperature spiked. As sharply as if I was about to burst into flames. The heat…trembling through my body felt…alive, which sounds nuts.” Jake paused, trying to reassemble scraps of memory long banished to the back of his brain. “It all does, I’ve never tried putting it into words before… The physical pain was less…horrific than the mental one—the terror was worse—the not knowing what the fuck was happening. Death seemed the most feasible…end, which was…a welcome prospect. I wanted it. It couldn’t come fast enough…to make it all stop.”

“Don’t do telling me more, it’s too much upsetting for you. I can feel it, but I don’t know how to do making a memory better, which hurts.” When Phin lifted his head to ensnare Jake’s gaze, the brown was so bleak it made him break out in a cold sweat. “Now you’ve gone all clammy, please do stopping, it’s not fair to make you—”

“The not fair part is that you are going to have to endure it,” Jake all-but snarled, to his shame.

“Shhhh…s’okay,” Phin crooned, his voice as soft, soothing, as a lullaby. The sudden swoop of his hand was so swift, it was clamped to Jake’s cock before he could protest.

“Fuck!” he gasped as a shaft of lust overshot the fear.

“There, that’s better…” Phin whispered into Jake’s neck as he began to sweep his wrist with smooth strokes as heady as they were hypnotic. “Now you can finish your story with a happy ending before I do conking.”

“I can’t see straight…let alone think,” Jake grumbled.

“You don’t need to do either…just do drifting and mumble on a bit.”

“‘Mumble on a bit‘…” Jake muttered. “Um, the heat seemed to unfurl from the base of my spine, as if it had been coiled there. Waiting. Now that does sound bonkers…God, Phin,” he groaned, when the glorious glide sped up, spilling liquid fire through Jake’s veins. “But that’s how it felt…

“I’m so sorry it did happening all on your own…” Soft lips as ripe, tempting as…Jake couldn’t think of anything on Earth comparable, his brain had melted to mush. “Tell me the worst thing… well, aside from not knowing what that would be…”

“Prob’ly the stuff I couldn’t see, the visceral…sounds that should be inside. Popping joints, sinews straining, the tear of tendons…fuck, it hurt. The grate of bone grinding bone was sickening, the images it…threw up were worse: snapped-off shards, the glisten of gristle, thick globules of blood. I could barely believe it was real, happening… Phin, you’re driving me demented…” He had slowed to a mesmerising sweep as Jake spoke just enough to keep him teetering on the brink of oblivion…a twist of wrist away from bliss. “Then the shudders started rolling down my back…guts convulsing as if I was about to vomit black bile—like a bad horror movie—which might’ve been preferable to the fact fur started flowing over my body.”

Flowing...was that how it felt…or the way t’happened?” Phin’s voice was dragging lazily across the words as if he were drugged…quite at odds with the mind boggling rhythm elsewhere, which was gathering pace. 

“Both…maybe? Fuck…Phin…aah!”

ComeformeJake…” had scarce caressed Jake’s ears when the white hot shiver of silver, shimmering on the edges of his vision exploded in a scorch of ecstasy. Snatching Jake far, far, from the dread world of darkness he’d dwelled in…alone, for so long.

 

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Wafflish

Beast of Bodmin Moor 40

 

Thank you so much for still being here.🥰 we’re about 80% done now…there should be around 50 chapters. 

 

 

 

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

 

 

Phin

 

 

 

Jake…have you ever done thinking that, p’raps you were meant to? Do this to me, I mean. You told me she saidI’ve found you…’”

*

It was Phin’s instincts that suggested Jake was supposed to do finding him and turn him foxy. She started it. Phin just…followed the paw prints. He’d always done trusting his gut feelings, they seemed to tell truths that doing concentrating never did. How could it, when people didn’t do making sense? Focusing couldn’t make the unfathomable fathomable. It didn’t make a jot o’difference how hard you stared in the dark, did it? Love made the least sense of all. Or the most, when it bamboozled you. It had superpowers so potent it could conjure logic from lunacy.

It was a pity Phin hadn’t done changing before Jake had time to get himself in such a flap. If it didn’t happen soon he would be doing hyperventilating and having a heart attack. Could jackal-folk have strokes? It was pointless asking his very own jackal, who’d somehow managed to stay doggedly in the dark. 

Ah, well…if Jake hadn’t been so determined to remain so, chances were he wouldn’t have done touching Phin with a bargepole, let alone agreed to a spot of cherry popping. It had been difficult ’nuff persuading the wasps to do buzzing off on the dangerous front, it would have been impossible had Jake been certain it would do jackal triggering.

Had Phin’s own jackal always been there, somewhere inside, waiting for Jack to do finding him, as Phin had started to suspect? It made lots of sense if he had. In fact, it did making more sense if Phin’s jackal had always been lurking about, lying in wait, as he sure seemed to have enough stuff in his head for two. Too much everything, according to all who’d done delving in it…until Jake came along, o’course. 

Why had ‘she’ done leaving Jake, after finding him though? Why bother, if she was just going to bugger off afterwards? That didn’t do adding up at all. The why wasn’t half as bewildering as the how, though. Phin would rather do dropping dead than leave Jake. It felt as if he might die inside, if Jake did deciding that he was done with Phin. 

Jake hadn’t sounded as if he was fibbing when he’d insisted he hadn’t been upset she’d left. Then again, he’d been too stoned to even ask her name, let alone feel a very lot of anything much. Except horny. It was most odd. Unless, she was the anomaly, rather than Phin? Now that, would be weirder still.  And yet…Jackals did mating for life. They were monogamous and did living in pairs (plus pups) rather than ‘packs’. That much Phin knew, from watching wildlife shows…the rest? He was going to have to do finding out…somehow. It was there to be found, it had to be, if Phin did digging. His dog with a bone disposition must be useful for something, surely? Other than discovering if his sister’s suitors had suspect hobbies, such as pyromania, kleptomania, pervy proclivities, or did practising blood sports…like fox hunting or serial killing.

*

“I’m parched…would you like a drink?” Jake asked, planting his palms on the bed to do peeling them apart and pushing himself up.  “We should get some breakfast down you, too…” 

“D’you have a laptop?” Phin wondered.

“Wouldn’t you rather have bacon?” Jake grinned, reaching out to snag his bathrobe off the floor. “Yeah. For music and shopping mostly, I’d never find anything I was prepared to wear otherwise, unless I started sporting most unseemly clobber.”

“You’d look very fetching in a barbour coat and green wellies…” Phin noted.

“I’d rather wear fur than don that get up,” Jake snorted as he did shrugging the robe on, stealing the sight of himself away. Scoundrel.

“I can scarce do waiting to wear mine.” Phin sighed, luxuriating in a stretch. Hmm…the sensation of skin skimming cool cotton felt luscious. 

“I need the loo…before that proves impossible,” Jake groaned, slamming his eyes shut. “I’ll go and make a cuppa, too…”

“‘Kay.” Phin watched his fleecey tush vanish through the doorway and then sat, gazing around the room he’d feared he would never even see, let alone be gifted the guest of honour spot in its bed. The furniture was a rich rosewood—or mahogany—carved from a deep reddish wood, not fixed together from flat-pack planks. The floor was varnished to match and scattered with sheepskin rugs that made Phin’s toes do curling with scrumptious familiarity. The walls were Phin’s very favourite shade of clotted cream, akin to Callestick Farm vanilla. Hmm…that was worth staying in Cornwall for, all on its own, let alone…

He could hear Jake doing pottering in the kitchen, Phin realised. The clink of a teaspoon in a cup, the soft sigh of a canister being opened, the rush of air from the fridge door. Crikey…Phin did dragging in a deep breath, perchance he’d conjured the smell as a scent association. Nope, he hadn’t. He could do whiffing bacon and sausage. Phin had shot out of bed and skittered down the stairs before he’d told himself to do shifting his butt. 

“Hungry?” Jake greeted him with a chuckle.

“How—”

“Aside from the fact that I heard your belly rumble when I opened the fridge, I can smell it. Here you go…tea’s up. Mind your grip, okay?” Jake cautioned, when he proffered the cup Phin’s way. “Unless you fancy wearing it, as opposed to drinking it.”

“You heard my belly do rumbling? Blimey…I hopes there’s a radio in the bathroom. Thank you,” Phin did feel a bit beset by grabby hands, so he focused on his fingers, too thirsty to waste his tea or do waiting for another. When he lifted it to his lips for a tentative sip, it tasted sort of wrong. All weird. Or p’raps he just wanted a sausage instead.

“Help yourself.”

“Huh?”

“From the fridge,” Jake grinned. “I doubt you fancy a bowl of cereal.”

“It’s like living with a—” The ‘sniffer dog’ part did dying in Phin’s throat. Oh. 

“What?”

“I’ve stuff in m’fridge if y’want me t’do going?” Phin’s words clattered together in their rush to scramble out, so he made himself do breathing a bit before adding, “I just did turning up uninvited and you’re still stuck wi—”

“No I don’t…nor anytime soon. I’m not letting you far from sight till I’m sure you’ll be safe out there. Come to think of it, I wasn’t convinced that was true two days ago. Let alone now,” Jake smirked.

“That’s not fair on you, I don’t want you to feel obliged to do looking after me.” Phin wanted to have a huff and do stomping about a bit, but that was a too much thing, so he had to content himself with a frowny face instead.

“Phin. I want you to stay.” Jake’s voice did the vibrating thing as his eyes blazed lightsaber blue. Phin couldn’t even do protesting; the words were there, on the tip on his tongue, but they seemed stuck to it. “For as long as you will. Forever, if I had my way…” he clarified, when Phin’s silence spoke louder than words. In a much more literal way than ‘a turn of phrase’.

Not as loud as one of Jake’s words though… which was still resounding around Phin’s head, rather than fading, until it felt as if his entire self was full of forevereverever.

“But…what if you can’t stand me, when I do changing?” Phin asked, blinking himself back to focus before he floated off, while busy sound bathing.

“It won’t change a damn thing.” Jake was welded to Phin’s body in an instant; wiry arms wrapped around his waist, ensnaring him in a steel embrace. Phin’s mug must have gone missing first but the jack-in-the-box antics made it tricky to do concentrating on where. The lust licking along his veins made it impossible, but there was one fact far too important to do forgetting:

“But you don’t even seem to want J—”

Jack?” he interrupted. “That’s different. Having one me in my head was unbearable. How the fuck d’you think it felt being stuck with two?” Jake tacked on a rueful chuckle, but he still smelled a smidge like a chip supper. 

“Two yous is twice as scrumptious. Two too much to seem true. That was way too many twos to make sense,” Phin noted. “I feel very fuzzy and fizzy…” 

“Close your eyes.” Jake instructed as his lips did twerking up in a ‘humour me’ manner, so Phin did as he was told without asking any daft questions. “Just feel, don’t think,” he murmured. “Now…d’you really think it’s possible that we could feel otherwise?”

We. A word Jake never did using to describe…himselves. His husky summer scent seemed stronger when Phin did closing them, but there was more…Phin could smell, taste, a longing far darker, deeper; sunshine shaded with shadow, seeping from Jake’s pores.

“No…?” 

“Why the question mark?” Jake skimmed his nose along the length of Phin’s neck, as if to snuffle the reason for himself. 

“The too muchness is more…intense, but I can’t do fathoming if it’s mine…or…” Phin let the rest trail away, rather than reel off the dafter sounding possibilities that did presenting themselves. 

“I wonder if that’s significant in itself.  Maybe…maybe not,” Jake shrugged. “I’ve only ever been saddled with an excess of…black doggedness, for want of a better expression. Whereas you feel everything ‘too much’. For the record, I don’t agree with that assessment.” The blue flared to full beam bright, as if to do emblazoning his belief on Phin’s eyeballs.

“Jake…”

“Again? Jake chuckled, but his gaze still did drilling Phin to the spot. That was below the belt. Precisely where Phin had been…heading. “Food, first…”  

Dammit. The gong-bonging thing had done getting very old, very very fast.

 

 

 

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Wafflish

Beast of Bodmin Moor 39

I’m sorry it’s taken so long…

 

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

 

 

Phin

 

“Hmm. Jake…” Phin sighed when the scent of sunshine musk did drifting into his dreams. The soft swish of hair and the brush of plush lips at his temple made his eyes snap open, which was odd, when he usually had to do prising them apart. Then again, they’d never had a sight so sumptuous awaiting them…one Phin longed to do waking to for…as long as Jake would let him.

“Morning…” His voice...made a warm weight do squirming in the pit of Phin’s guts.

“You’re back…” Duh, that was stating the bloomin obvious, when Jake was blatantly here and not sporting a furry face. “It was lovely to see Jack, but hmmm…” Much as he loved Foxy, Phin was in no fit state to inflict on super-sniffer dog skills. Noxious niffs or no…he’d somehow missed Jake, despite delighting in his cosy-as-can-be night with Jack. A snippet of info it seemed important to share, so Phin did…which made Jake do a strange strangly sound, and Phin do wishing the bed would swallow him up for being so stoopid. The rush of relief when Jake’s mouth crushed down did stealing his breath…and the belief that he was about to be told to do leaving.

It was a fear that felt as if it could snatch away his last tatty scraps of sanity. A plummet from teetering on the brink of impossible bliss into an abyss darker, deeper than he’d ever dreaded before. A terror that made Phin too skittish to do deciding if it was real, which was scary in itself.

It was all too new, too bright, too bewildering, much-too-much to believe it belonged in his life. Frettings as scratchy as a mean, spitting kitten kept telling him do fleeing as fast as he could. Before Jake wished Phin would. Self-sabotage was his fail safe way to stave off being found faulty. Proving it before the inevitable happened was a consequence Phin could do controlling. He would rather be squished by the anvil than live with it hanging over his head.

Being squished by Jake was infinitely preferable. His weight was the most unexpected wonder of all. Phin had never realised it was something he should do craving. Now? He was besieged by a clamour of hankerings. Every sense felt starved, ravenous for Jake’s touch, taste, smell, the sound of his voice, the sight of his face. Cravings that consumed all but the bone deep need for closeness to do soothing the scratchy. To feel Jake do filling him up in every way. To crawl inside his skin and stay there for…ever. 

“Stay with me…” Jake’s whisper fanned Phin’s face with whiskey warm breath, the blue ablaze with a hundred hues. Stay with me? For how long? Must it matter? No…yes. No, because Jake wanted him to do staying full stop, for however long he meant. Yes, when he’d kicked down a door Phin had done dashing through without being sure when it would shut him out.

“D’you mean—?” Phin did biting his lip to stop the too much from flaunting itself.

“Forever.” Forever? Could it do meaning a time that wasn’t ‘for the foreseeable future’. At least. At best? For ever and ever amen. “Yes.” One word; the world within it.

A happy (ever after) place with his furry friend, whether Jake was sporting some, or not. Phin couldn’t seem to do seeing them as two separate selves, despite Jake’s insistence that ‘Jack’ had distinct needs and demands. Did he find that less scary than accepting them as his own instincts, unleashed? Did it matter one bit, when Jake’s belief must count most? So, Phin did asking the daftest question he’d ever let flit from his lips. A feat in itself. 

“But…what about Foxy? Won’t he mind being stuck with me…?”

Mind? He’s been dead set on…making you his from the instant he caught your scent on the wind.” Jake’s brief pause sounded more telling than the word he’d done abandoning. The unutterable was always more important. That’s why Phin had never craved company; it meant he must do ignoring the shadow stuff that mattered most. To them, which was a bit batshit, it must not be said.

After a bit of banter back and forth, Phin was gifted the truth. Straight from the jackal’s mouth, he was sure of it: Mating. A word that came complete with superpowers all of its own and quite snaffled Phin’s chances of making sense any time soon. Scandalous, that.

So was having traitorous lips with a titchy tendency to do spilling secrets that came back to bite Phin on the bum. A thought that didn’t do helping his grey matter matters one bite. Bit. Phin’s fudging did do tickling Jake’s funny bone though, which mattered more, when the scoundrel kept fretting about stuff that did not. Better yet, Jake’s splutter-snort was just the ticket to fast track them from sticky patches to pastures far less scratchy:  

“You smell luscious, so the stench must be knocking you out…” 

Your smell isn’t. Mine is far less…fragrant, except for the fact you reek of it.”  As if to do proving that Phin’s stench was not a jot noxious, Jake—fearless superfiend that he was—dipped his head to do inhaling a heroic lungful of the fearsome niff.

Tendrils of hair did tickling Phin’s face, its scent so heady he could do tasting it down to his toes. Jake’s breath sent skitters shivering down his spine, even before the feasting at Phin’s neck. He felt pinpricks of blood do tingling to the surface, as luscious as the graze of Jake’s teeth. Too gentle to do hurting, but oh, so right. As if they could—would—satisfy some…unknowable need. 

“Hmm…” Phin let his head do falling back, pressing into a pillow that puffed out Jake’s scent.

“Phin…” His voice was husky rasp that did tugging deep in Phin’s guts when Jake blazed a trail of lips and tongue across his collarbone, did smudging down to scatter kisses across his chest…

“Jake…please…” Phin didn’t know what he was pleading for till Jake paused to do torturing a nipple with teasing teeth. Lulling Phin into a world of sensation so sumptuous it was a shock to his system when Jake did swooping all-of-a-sudden to sluice a luxuriant lick along his cock. Phin’s hips shot about three feet off the bed, so it was a fine thing that Jake was blessed with foxy reflexes, or he might’ve done poking an eye out. His jackal-in-the-box boner was such a sight to behold, it looked as if it might be luminous in the dark. Unless, it just felt that way.

It was a splendid thing to be foxy, even just to have himself a lightsaber cock. That was a bit of a fib. The real reason started to do swirling his devilish tongue around its tip, obliterating all manner of cockly comparisons Phin might have mustered up. Its mind-mangling twizzle left him clawing the duvet, clutching at clammy fistfuls…which no longer seemed attached to the rest after the raspy sound of ripping fabric. Oops.

“Jake! Please… I can’t—” do enduring any more. Phin needed him. Now. “Jake! Don’t do faffing,” he pleaded when Jake had grabbed the lube and done a swift bit of slathering. Phin was willing to swear that his body had become a mite more accommodating here ‘n’ there…which was a bloomin good job. He might combust if he was forced to do waiting.

“Y’sure?”

“Very!” he gasped when his grappling guts ratcheted up another notch or ninety.

“Really? Are you doing fibbing?”

“Nooo. P’raps…’twould be a tad tricky…with paws.” And claws…oouch.Pleease!

Jake slid his hands beneath Phin’s butt and did hefting him up with featherweight ease. Barely a snatched off breath later, he’d buried himself in Phin’s body with a sublime snap of foxy hips.

“Gnrrrrh! Y’sure? Strewth…” Jake’s eyes had flared so wide it looked as if they might do plopping on Phin’s chest.

“Yesssss! Move!” Crikey, Phin wasn’t going to last two minutes. He felt like the Human Torch; as if he’d done bursting into flames—but blissfully pain free—fuelled from within. Jake nodded and did pulling back before thrusting inside with a growl that did tugging at Phin’s stirring self. Or he was fast turning into a fruitloop. No matter, Phin didn’t care a toot. About aught but the staggering swish of Jake’s spine; sweeping with such speed he might’ve been all blurry, if Phin’s eyes couldn’t do keeping up. 

“Hmmore…” Phin sighed. The flames were less fierce now, licking along his veins with silken tongues, soothing—even as they burned ever brighter—like a log fire on a wintry night. It felt as if he might go off like a rocket any second, despite being sure he could do lasting forever. Jake p’raps didn’t feel quite the same.

“Phin…I- I-fuuck!” The palms clamped to Phin’s bum did trembling when Jake gasped and did throwing his head back. A sheen of sweat glistened on his golden chest, rainbows glinting in the droplets sprinkled across his skin. When he raised his head to do meeting Phin’s gaze, those bewitching blues were wild, ablaze with such raw need, it was a miracle he hadn’t come apart, in one way or another. Or done ripping Phin to shreds with his teeth.

“Jake!” His eyes narrowed with laser focus when Jake dragged in a ragged breath. Then did flexing his hips in final flurry of thrusts as scintillating as the howl of sound that finished Phin off. Jake didn’t even do touching him. A torrent of bliss just did battering Phin’s body and blistered through his system like force lightning. It seemed touch and go whether the world behind his eyelids would explode in light-shot shards. Or Phin. Much to his relief, it was the white-out. Phew. Phin might have done a dreadful damage to Jake’s cock, and that was one of his very favourite things.

 

***

 

Jake

 

 

“Y’okay?” Jake asked, gazing down at Phin’s lazy lidded face after lowering him to the bed; lips curved in a smile so sublime Jake wanted to lick it.

“Hmm…” The smile stretched as languidly as the eyelashes dusting his cheeks. He looked stoned. Immaculate.

Jake crawled up to flop down on his side facing Phin and propped his head on a bent elbow. Quite how he conspired to pull off a beatific serenity that belied kiss-bitten lips, a(n embarrassingly) lavish love bite, and sweat sodden hair, Jake knew not. 

“Jake…are you afraid?” Phin’s eyelids fluttered open to reveal limpid pools of brown deep enough to drown in.

“For you,” he admitted, lifting his hand to stroke the damp tendrils of hair from Phin’s brow.

“I thought so…I can seem to smell it. I’m not scared, so there’s no need to do worrying.”

“Everything you’ll have to endure…is my fault. I hate that I’ve done this to you.” Jake’s words echoed the rasp of a bastard file. How appropriate.

“It will be worth it, so I’m not really fussed, but Jake…hasn’t it done crossing your mind that…p’raps you were meant to? Do this to me, I mean. You told me that she said ‘I’ve found you.’ So…it doesn’t seem too daft to suggest that she, or her…kin, might have done finding me, even if you didn’t.” Phin’s voice was the sound of waves lapping the shore. 

“I’d…never thought it through. I know you’ve rustled that up to alleviate my guilt, but I deserve to feel fuck awful. I should be slaughtered.”

“Pah…piffle. Who will do looking after me, then? I might do getting up to all sorts of too much mischief, left to my own devices…”

“Christ. Phin…” A low warning rumbled in his throat. Phin? Appeared not to notice, too busy being whisked away on the wings of his own whimsy.

“I might cause super-mishaps here, there ‘n’ everywhere, which would be your fault if you did slaughtering yourself. Then you’d deserve to feel guilty… aside from the fact you’d be a bit too dead, o’course.”

“You’re a monster, Finlay. You can’t guilt me out of feeling guilty.”

“I’ve never claimed otherwise…you just did putting the cherry on top. And snaffled mine, while you were at it. I suspect I can, cos I just did,” the delinquent declared.

“I need a drink.” Jake groaned.

“You always do saying that when you know I’m right,” Phin smirked.

“Shut up.” Jake grunted.

“…And that.” Phin clamped his lips together, eyes pinned wide as he tried to stifle a snigger.

“Phin!” Didn’t have the grace to look the least perturbed by Jake’s death-stare. Quite the contrary. His shoulders started quaking with silent laughter. Oh gawd.

An all-too vivid image of Phin as a jackal…pup flashed through Jake’s head. Christ... The Beast of Bodmin Moor was about to do seeming a lot like bloody Bagpuss.

 

***

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Beast of Bodmin Moor 38

 

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

Jack

 

 

Jack woke; eyes wide, instantly alert. Turning his head, he snuffed a huff of content. A soft smile was playing upon Phin’s lips, his angel face serene in sleep.  

Unwilling to entrust his mate to human ears overnight, Jack had determined on guard-dog duty. In truth, it was a smidge too soon for such vigilance, but better safe than sorry, an’ all that, Jake. The cosy as can be part had been mere…consequence. A happy happenstance, that was it. Jack was not a jot as cunning as a Foxy.

After a few minutes luxuriating in the sheer bliss of…being, Jack slithered off the bed and padded out of the bedroom. He need only remain patient for a few more hours. When the moon rose in midnight skies, he would be able to claim Phin as his own. At last. Jake would keep him safe till then, because ‘he’ loved Phin too. Of course. Jack rolled his eyes. Humans…who’d have ’em. Except for Phin, of course. He was theirs.

Forevermore.

 

 

***

 

Jake

 

 

Jake stepped out of the bath and towelled off his now less noxious self. He’d reeked something chronic after reclaiming it. 

Yes, I know ‘why’ you did it…but you knew it was too early to fear for Phin’s welfare. Better safe than sorry, my arse. You could have at least held off until I’d got my breath back.

You’d have been less befuddled then.

Damn right, I would.

‘Befuddled’? Phin, of course. Jack would no doubt insist on doing changing next. Jake raked his fingers through his hair and huffed a sigh of resignation. His bladder was bursting, so he took care of that, then had a quick wash and brushed his teeth. Dog breath.

Rude.

Rude is taking advantage of a man, mid-orgasm.

Fibber…you’d finished.

Just-a-bloody-bout…couldn’t you cut it any finer? Don’t answer that.

*

Jake stood in the doorway of his bedroom for a moment. Drinking in the sight he’d deemed so impossible. The miracle that was Phin. Asleep in his bed. How Jake had longed for this…feared it could never be. Had done all that was humanly possible to ensure it didn’t happen. To keep Phin safe.

‘If you love someone, set them free’ had always seemed more cliche than sound advice. If they come back they’re yours, if they don’t, they never were’…? Too impressed with itself to offer much comfort. More to the point, it was scant consolation when sacrificing a future with someone was far from setting them free. It was just denying your self to safeguard theirs. Jake had proved too weak to withstand the doggedness of one. In cahoots? Jack and Phin were an unstoppable force. Irresistible. He’d failed Phin…and now it was too late. Far too late.

Perhaps y’should just suck it up then.

If that was a bad pun; I fully intend to. If it was a…turn of phrase, then fuck off.

Hmm…Jake…” Phin sighed, nuzzling deeper into the pillow with a sleep strewn smile when Jake bent to press a kiss to his temple. The moment those eyes fluttered open, Jake was plunged into huge pools of drowning brown; so deep, dark, they were but a breath from black. Breathtaking. Beautiful. H—Theirs.

“Morning…” Jake smiled.

“You’re back…”

“I am.”

“It was lovely to see Jack, but…hmmm…” With that sublime sigh, Phin raised his arm to stroke an overhanging tendril of Jake’s hair aside and tuck it behind his ear. “I missed you…”

“I—” A bolt of lust blazed through Jake’s body, scything straight through the words he’d been about to attempt. 

“S’okay…I didn’t hope you’d do saying it back. I just wanted to be sure you knew…”

Jake crushed his mouth to the soft ‘oo’ those lips had formed. The answering shaft of raw need that speared Phin intensified Jake’s own. It wasn’t a simple doubling—it resounded back and forth—fuelling the fire, feeding the flames. Breaking the kiss briefly, Jake grasped a fistful of duvet and dragged it off the bed, unveiling a gleaming expanse of alabaster skin. Phin’s naked scent flooded Jake’s senses, engulfing him in a tsunami of too much…never, ever enough…  Jake found himself enfolded in everlasting arms and tugged flush to Phin’s body; hard heat fusing in a clash of chests and cocks.

“Stay with me…” Jake gazed down into a brown ablaze with liquid lust; Bunsen blue reflected in their midnight depths.

“D’you mean—?”

“Forever.” Jake cut in, too impatient to secure an answer to outwait a question. Why force Phin to fumble around, for fear of mooting too much. Jake never wanted to hear that infernal phrase again. Or Phin to fret about its impossibility, let alone utter it aloud.

“Forever?” Those eyes flared improbably wider, wonder writ far too large for the fate they’d doomed him to. Jake had been lost the instant his—theirs—locked with them. 

“Yes.”

“But…what about Foxy? Won’t he mind being stuck with me…?” Phin’s frown was as ‘daft’ as the fear that provoked it.

“Mind? He’s been hell-bent on…making you his from the second he caught your scent on the wind.”

“What were you going to say instead of ‘making you…’”

“You really don’t want to know,” Jake groaned.

“I really do…or I wouldn’t have done asking. I want to know more now you don’t want to ‘fess up.”

“Mating.” Jake groaned, dipping his head to hide his mortification. Mating, f’fucksakes. 

“Mating. I’m chuffed t’bits you told me now. It’s a foxy sort of word, so I can do letting myself listen, rather than suspect I heard what I wanted to.” Phin smiled, for all the world as if finding himself mated to a mangy mutt was a fate as fortuitous as slipping his foot into Cinderella’s slipper.   

“Phin…” 

“You should let yourself listen. I’d never do fibbing about forever,” he informed Jake with a twinkle that promised mischief in mind. “I’d just fudge a bit, not fib, till I could do scarpering, first chance I got.” 

Jake couldn’t help the splutter that promptly sprayed Phin with spittle. “Oh gawd, sorry…”

“You didn’t need to do hinting…I know I niff to high heaven,” he chuckled. “I feel proper scratchy—with itchies—where my skin was sticky. You smell luscious, so the stench must be knocking you out…”

Your smell isn’t. Mine is far less…fragrant, except for the fact you reek of it.” Jake leaned in to ghost his nose along the extravagant sweep of Phin’s neck…paused at its pounding pulse to fasten there. A soft moan vibrated against his lips, a sound so steeped in pleasure, his whiskers would’ve quivered with delight, had they been in situ. Jake drew hard, dragging the blood to the surface with a light graze of teeth. The latter being…purely to complete the…ritual?

Mating ritual. Oh, Christ.

“Hmm…” Phin let his lids glide shut and his head fall back. Jack stirred, his gaze iridescent with...satisfaction? 

No answer came the reply. Sphinx face in full force. F’fucksakes. Steeling himself, Jake braved the shrouded mists of his mind, long since blanketed. 

Cognisance. Jack recognised it as a…gesture. Baring the vulnerable arc of his throat was an…act of trust. Relinquishment. A sacred gift given, rather than surrender.

 

***

 

 

 

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Beast of Bodmin Moor 37

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

Phin

 

 

“I’m still ravenous…” Phin noted, ever the greedy guts.

“That’s because you need food,” Jake informed him. Bossy boots.

“Nope, it’s not…but I am peckish, too.”

“You need food. Or you might find yourself setting off in search of some, whether you want to, or not,” Jake warned, the blue clouding with worry.

“Did that happen to you?” Phin tried to do keeping his voice whisper soft, but it still sounded shouty.

“Yes. Later. Food first.”

“Oh, okay…then do I get my pudding?”

Yeees. C’mon. UP.” Jake ordered. Phin had sprung to his feet before deciding to do standing up. “Um, I didn’t mean instantaneously,” the scoundrel chuckled.

“I didn’t do choosing…your voice did.”

“Huh?”

“When you said ‘Up’, your tone was different…like a summons, so I did listening to it.”

What the—? I didn’t, well I don’t…different how?”

“It sort of did bonging, like a gong.”

“Not…on purpose. Does it sound ordinary now?”

“It could never do sounding ‘ordinary’ to me…” Phin admitted “…but yes. It is more velvety now, p’raps because I can hear its textures—like notes of perfume—it’s not doing the gong thing though. Try and do it again. Maybe…you must want me to do it. A lot. Dang, I might wish I hadn’t done suggesting that…” 

“Okay…well, you need to eat, but I’d better tell you where to go, incase you start chewing the rug. Fuck, I feel ridiculous…Phin, kitchen,” Jake commanded…and yes, there it was again. A tone that did echoing round his head, tugging like a leash. Phin shot off down the hallway, Jack hot on his heels. “Interesting…” The glint of steel in those eyes glistened silver-grey-blue as the scoundrel grinned in triumph. Uh-oh.

“I think I regret mentioning it, already,” Phin grumbled, a smidge distractedly, while watching Jake tug the fridge door open. The whiff of bacon and sausage that wafted Phin’s way made his mouth do watering…enough to p’raps cause drooling. He could smell everything in there; bacon and sausage being the most scrumptious. Far more appetising than the slightly sour taint of milk—which wasn’t off—that was its stink. There was also something sharp, citrusy…and the metallic tang of cans…and some more stuff Phin couldn’t be bothered to do identifying when he wanted a sausage.

“What d’you fancy?” Jake asked, after watching Phin do snuffing the air for a few seconds.

“That’s the daftest question I ever heard, but I may as well have some sausages in the meantime.”

*

“Jack…will you tell me about doing changing now?” Phin asked, after gulping down his last bite of sausage sandwich. It had proved so tasty, he’d scoffed it as fast as he could, which was a bit weird when he always did savouring his food. Rather than scarfing as if someone might do snatching it away. He also felt a mite more…settled in his tum, less skittish in the marble department.

They were seated at the kitchen table, wrapped in their so-soft bathrobes. Phin couldn’t resist snuffling at the sunshine musk clinging to the one he wore, even though Jake was seated opposite and the entire cottage was steeped in his scent. 

“It was…awful. I didn’t know what the hell was happening, when I first woke. I wondered what the fuck I’d taken…acid seemed about the best bet, when everything was so…vivid, intense. That makes me sound like a bloody hippy: It was like far out, man…” Jake dipped his head to staring at the table when his face flushed scarlet.

“It didn’t do sounding daft to me…my senses seem to think much-too-much all-at-once is a splendid plan. Everything feels more excessive than usual…excessively excessive,” Phin grinned, before admitting, “I’ve never done understanding what that means, not really, nothing I do is too much to me. It feels…normal. Too ordinary to know what they’re going on about. It’s akin to being told I’m in the penthouse when I’m sure I’m on the ground floor. Bonkers…but I have to do believing them, because they’re right and I’m wrong, but I can’t work out why. Did that do making any sense?” Phin wondered, wrinkling his nose…as if his words smelled too strange to pull off such a feat.

“Yes…it does. If it’s any comfort, I doubt I could’ve been as tolerant as you have. Not without snapping a few necks, at least. Excessive, compared to what, or whom?”

“I didn’t want to do bearing it anymore, so that’s why I bought my campervan. I didn’t need to be tolerant though, I just forgot about concentrating and did taking lots of no notice. Anyhoo, you still haven’t told me about doing changing and I’m very starving.”

“I know…” Jake groaned, his voice a husky rasp as he did snapping his head up to spear Phin with blazing blue; luminous, lit from within.

“Jake…” His name, barely above a breath, rifled the air half a heartbeat before Jake did throwing himself forwards, across the table in an ear-clattering cacophony of crockery. Phin (and his chair) hurtled to the floor, landing flat on his back with Jake atop him.

“Fuck, sorry!” 

“S’okay,” Phin gasped, too gatecrashed, Jake-crushed, to care if his spine had snapped as a consequence. “Jake…fuck me. NOW.” Phin’s body felt as if it might do bursting into flames, so intense was the heat, both within and without. 

“Hell, NO!”

“Jake! Please!!” Phin shrieked, gouging grooves in the tiles when his fingers flexed, trying to do clinging on.

“Phin, I need to get you somewhere safe.”

“NOOOO…need you! Aaah!”

Shit…you’d better be right,” Jake growled.

“Huh…?” Phin could scarce see straight, let alone do concentrating on what he might be right about.

“No, not you… Jack,” he stressed, springing off Phin to do scooping him up. Phin was bent over the table a bitten-off breath later, his cheek smushed to the soothing cool of pine. “Y’kay?” he asked, sweeping Phin’s robe aside. 

“Ye—” The snap of heaven-sent hips did snatching the rest away when Jack buried himself in Phin’s body. “Aaaahh…” Replacing it with a sigh of sheer relief.

“Gnrrrh! S’tight!”

“Hmm…” A smile was too busy smearing itself across Phin’s mush to do speaking. His brain couldn’t be bothered, and his body was too besieged by bliss to care about bugger all. Else.

“Oh f’fucksakes…” Jake’s curse breezed along Phin’s back alongside the thunk of his forehead against it.

 

***

 

Jake

 

Jake shot forwards, propelled by a force stronger than will when he threw himself across the table. He smashed straight through the remnants of their supper; plates and cups scattering like shrapnel as he ploughed into Phin and sent him flying—chair and all—to land with a bone-jarring clatter, flat on his back on the floor.

“Fuck, sorry. I” Jake groaned, gazing down at Phin’s shell-shocked expression; wide-eyed and unblinking, rosebud lips parted in a perfect ‘o’.

“S’okay. Please Jake…” Phin’s spine spasmed and his entire body jolted as if a thousand volts were tearing through it; long, lean muscles locking with a violent tremour as his body heat spiked and the need snagged their guts.

“Fuck…NO,” Jake shrieked, scrambling onto all fours. Phin’s face was frozen in a mask of pain, eyes screwed tight shut. Teeth gritted against the agony they could feel as surely as hear the ear-splitting screech of Phin’s fingernails clawing tile.

What the fuck should I—we—do? 

You know damn well what. Do it.

Sex? Are you off your fucking nut? NOW? He’s going to change, I can’t start pounding away at his arse, have you lost the plot?

They. Need. Us.

“Shit…you’d better be right.” Jake snarled. “No, not you… Jack,” he told Phin, peering up in puzzlement through eyes glazed with pain when Jake bent to scoop him off the floor. Phin was bent over the table in the barely a blink later; feverish skin pressed to soothing pine.

“Y’kay?” Jake asked, flipping Phin’s robe out of the way. His scent, stronger than everand suffused by theirswas staggering, tempered only by the resinous warmth of wood. Jake shrugged his own robe off and clasped his cock to line himself up.

“Ye” His answer was cut off when Jake thrust into his body, hilt deep with one sharp snap of hips and a hellish growl. “Aaaahh…” Phin’s sigh was steeped in sheer bliss…as if he’d just had a sedative suppository. Far too typical to seem the least strange, in any circumstances.

“S’tight…” Tight? Jake felt all-but flayed to bone.

“Hmm…” A rolling purr of sound, like a lazy curl of smoke.

“Oh f’fucksakes…” Jake groaned, flopping onto the extravagant sweep of Phin’s back. His skin was a ‘smidge’ cooler; clammy, but no longer burning up as before. “I thought you were about to” Jake broke off, afraid to give it voice for fear of tempting fate.

“Foxy was right though, see? Jake, will you do moving now?”

“What?” Jake blinked, bewildered. Surely, he’d heard that wrong? Foxy was right?

“He knew it would do working. Pleease?” Phin wiggled his arsea promptJake assumed.

That conversation would have to wait. The triple weight of their impatience was grapple hooking his guts. An unholy trinity of need gnawed his nuts, urging him on. Fuck, he was being besieged from everywhere; beneath him, through him, from him. Submerged in it, consumed by it. Desire, as devouring as the lust licking along his veins. Raw instinct, primal in its power, too pure for the petty complexities of human minds.

Jake pulled back, to hammer straight home. “Gnrrrh!” Home. Mine. Heart…body…soul. Mate. Mine. Home… Hips pounding to the rhythm of twin heartbeats, pulsing through their body; racing ever faster, swirling around his head.

“Ahhh…Jake….”

It was a riot of taste, touch, scent, sound; his eyes were closed, lost to this world… Lost in Phin. There was only him. Them. Phin and his fledgling self. Soothed now, by the lullaby slam of flesh on flesh and the gatling growls that ripped free. As if he was bobbing on a boat, rather than bent over the kitchen table being nailed by a half-feral hybrid. The impossible pressure was maddening as Jake ground himself deeper still. Phin, never still; gouging grooves in the wood as his fingers fought for purchase, straining against Jake, as if there could be no close enough. For him, either.

“Phin…I can’t…”

“Hmm…yessss…” he sighed. A sing-song shimmer of sound…as if he was stoned.

When Jake bent to curl a hand around Phin’s cock, the scorch of flame that flared up his arm almost finished him off. Jake had no sooner formed a fist than Phin came; thick and fast, pulsing through Jake’s fingers as their name rattled the lampshade and shackled their heart.

“Jaaack!” A howl of sound so sublime it made Jack preen with pleasure. A husky rumble, deep in their chest skittered along Phin’s spine when Jake bent to press a kiss to it, then gripped Phin’s hips and snapped his own forwards a final time.

” Phiiin!” Jake shuddered and stilled, trembling as his vision shattered and torrent of white heat tore through his body; a rush of excruciating ecstasy too intense—truly too much—to survive intact.

 

***

 

Phin

 

 

An abrupt abyss of emptiness filled Phin’s body and did clutching his heart. He snapped his head up when his happy haze of bliss was obliterated by a sharp stab of awareness. Jack. His scent was stronger, sharper, cleaving through the sunshine musk. Jake had shot backwards, as if he’d been fired from a cannon. He would have been a blur had Phin’s eyes been incapable of tracking his trajectory…but Jake almost did sailing through the air in slow motion.

A feral growl did ripping from his throat when he crashed into the cupboards before crumpling to the floor, gulping great gasps of air. Phin was crouched beside him before he realised he’d done moving, but he must have. When Jake’s head jerked up, his eyes were an inhuman hue; a shimmering swirl of cerulean, flickering like gas flame.

“Grrrretback!” His snarl slammed against Phin’s ears like cymbals. Phin didn’t do choosing, Jake’s words propelled him back, away from his shuddering self. His honeyed skin was doing twitching as if a current of electricity was skittering through it.

Phin could see, hear, smell, feel far too much to do taking it in; engulfed by an avalanche of everything-at-once. Above all else, he could hear the frantic pounding of Jake’s heart, so he did concentrating on that, rather than the renting screech of Jake’s skin and the twang of tendons tugged too taut. The grate of bone grinding bone savaged Phin’s ears as Jake’s joints did popping with a meaty sounding squelch and his muscles strained, stretching. Stretching, to accommodate the changing shape of a body that began to blur when his shimmering skin did darkening from gold to ochre, from ochre to russet, grey…and black.

Phin didn’t see, hear, think, any of that separately; they were shoots from the same stem. Flooding his senses alongside the echo of Jake’s pain and the scent that did filling his entire self.  The ‘sudden sharp hot stink’ of…jackal. Not fox. Although, it was, o’course, his very own Foxy who did unfurling before his very eyes. After rising from the floor to stand proud on all paws, he did shaking out his fur with a full body quiver. Phin was sure he could do seeing every individual hair of his coat sway, like a field of wheat waving in the wind

Something deep within Phin stirred, stretched and then settled, with a huff of content.

“Jack…” Dropping to his haunches where he’d stood, Phin did holding out his hand. 

Claws tipp-tapped across the tiles as Jack came close enough to snuffle Phin’s fingers for a few seconds, before butting his head against his palm. Phin grinned and did fondling his ears as Foxy hoped he might; it made a happy rumble of sound do purring in his throat.

“It’s lovely to see you,” Phin told him, rather than expect Jack to sense that for himself. Even the best instincts could be foxed when feelings counted for more. “I’m glad you’re here…” he added, unwilling to let Jack do wondering whether some part of Phin wished he wasn’t. He never did ‘assuming’ stuff, and Phin wasn’t about to start now. Not when the consequences couldn’t matter too much.

Jack lifted his head and did swiping a sloppy lick across Phin’s cheek with a glistening pink tongue. “You’ve just had some sausages, so you shouldn’t be too peckish… d’you want a drink?”

Jack looked down at the floor, at the trail of broken crockery littered across it, then lifted his head and did raising his tufty eyebrows. Ruefully. Phin spluttered and clamped his hand across his mouth, in case Foxy was miffed about the mishap. But the eyes that gazed up at Phin were twinkly with amusement as his tongue did lolling out in a laugh.

“What would you like to do? Please do staying, if you want to, I’ve missed you. We can go out in the van if you like, unless you want a snooze. It’s late though, so you might need a scamper about.”

Jack tilted his head to one side as he did thinking about this. Then swiped a swift lick across Phin’s hand and turned to pitter-pat across the kitchen floor. Phin followed him down the hallway, but rather than do heading for the front door, Jack stopped at the bottom of the stairs and stared at Phin with a steady gaze.

“‘Kay…” he nodded and followed the swish of his foxy tail as he did bounding up the stairs. Once at the top, he pattered across the landing to Jake’s bedroom and leapt onto the bed. To Phin’s utter delight Jack did turning a full circle—in a foxy fashion—afore settling down at the bottom of it.

“I just need to use the loo…oh, sorry, d’you want to go too?”

Jack waved his head from side-to-side, then did resting it on his front paws, so Phin went in search of the bathroom. Once he’d been to the loo, he stood at the sink to do looking at his face in the mirror. It seemed much the same, except for his skin, which was a mite akin to moonlit alabaster. Rather than death pallor pale, as usual. Had his eyesight done causing it? Or, had he been bestowed with a radiant complexion since this morn? A thought that made Phin do grinning—at himself—with loon alert glee.

On the subject of eyes, his irises were darker than ever; so dark it was tricky to distinguish them from the pupil. Unless, they’d dilated so much there was barely any brown left…and yet, they didn’t look dull or flat. More like globules of ink caught in the light, glistening with the secret rainbow of colour secreted by black.

Nevertheless, Phin would rather do staring at Foxy than his own face, so he headed back to the bedroom. Jake’s. He must do remembering that—Jack and Jake—rather than Foxy and Jack. It would all do getting in a muddle otherwise. How much longer would it be before Phin did changing into his own Foxy? He must ask Jake when he did coming back.

Phin wasn’t afraid, he knew it would do hurting, but that was the price he had to pay. He’d felt much the same about sex before the wasps finally buzzed off.

“Hiya,” Phin grinned when he saw Jack still curled on the bed. His tail did patting the duvet—which made Phin’s insides purr with pleasure—as he lifted his head. Phin bent to press a kiss to the top of it and inhaled a lungful of husky scent before giving his ears a ruffle.

“I’ll get into bed, cos I haven’t got any fur to keep me cosy.” He told Jack, lifting the duvet to slide beneath it. “Sleep where you’d like to, okay? You don’t have to do staying down there.”

The blue was agleam with a soft glow as Jack watched Phin wriggle down to do resting his head on pillows that seeped sunshine musk.

“Hmm…” Turning onto his side, Phin pressed his face into it and breathed Jake in. The mattress did shifting beneath him as paws padded up the bed, then Jack snuffled at his hair before curling up beside him. After snuggling into the curve of Phin’s body, he did a happy huff; his weight a warm, cosy comfort atop the covers. Phin’s smile was smudgy soft as he curled an arm across the silken solidity of his foxy friend, and let his eyes do fluttering shut.

 

***

Wafflish

Beast of Bodmin Moor 36

The Beast of Bodmin Moor

 

Jake

 

Hmmm…more…” His murmur was a purr of pleasure that shimmered down Jake’s spine and shivered across his skin like the stroke of a thousand feathers. As compelling as the unabashed response of Phin’s body; every sense as finely tuned as a Stradivarius string. Muscles that flexed with such fluidity, he would run like a ripple of ribbon in the wind. Phin’s ungainly grace, like a newborn foal finding its feet, had smoothed from staccato spurts of movement to a melodic glide. A violin stroked by the bow of a master, rather than plucked at random by a truculent teen.

All these shifts might have been too slight to notice, had Jake not been intent on doing just that. Having never watched himself in motion, he’d been blind to the subtle, yet startling differences he now saw in Phin. Even if he had studied himself, his gaze wouldn’t have been graced by a ghostly gleam of pearlescent skin in the soft glow of night-sight. Let alone an endless streak of naked wraith on a sheepskin rug; carved from ivory, kissed by moonlight. Exquisite. His.

Barely conscious of his own movements now, Jake just…let go. Allowed his body do as it demanded and surrendered to the all-consuming craving. Revelled for once, in being no more, no less than a creature of flesh, blood and bone deep need…who needed Phin more than his next breath.

Closing his eyes, Jake focused instead on a world of touch, taste, scent. Relished the rhythmic thud of the most precious sound in his world. As strong and true as they’d ever remain to Phin. Mates for life. I did not think that. Did too. Twin pulses; racing ever faster as Jake sped up, spurred by an impossible pressure, sparking up his spine, boiling his blood. The world behind his eyelids, ablaze in a haze of scarlet bright, like infra-red on LSD. No drug on Earth could compare to this. Nothing had ever, or could ever compete. No one. There was only Phin.

It was an irrevocable truth. Written in blood. Their blood. Jake’s scent coursing through Phin’s veins….calling his jackal out to play.

 

***

 

 

Phin

 

Rather than being gloriously glutted, Phin felt so fizzy he could do sprinting up the side of a mountain for a sumptuous picnic and spot of alfresco sex. He was still starving hungry. In every way. Crikey.

Jake sighed and did sinking down onto Phin’s back in a smudge of slick skin. His sigh was a lush shimmer of sound that seemed to do stroking Phin’s ears. A feeling so luscious he didn’t blame Foxy—Jack—one bit for going all gooey when his were fondled. If the ear thing and being hypercharged, rather than knackered seemed weird, it wasn’t a patch on the fact Phin was willing to swear that Jack felt happy. Not in an instinctive way like before, when he’d sensed that Foxy wouldn’t hurt him, but in a very real way. He knew that Jack was chuffed t’bits. As certain as if Jack had done telling him.

Phin knew lots more things, too…

“Jake..?”

“Yeah..?”  Jake did pressing a silky kiss to Phin’s spine before slipping from his body and doing flopping on the rug beside him. The ache he left in his wake was hollow rather than ‘hurt’. Phin had never felt finer in his life. Unable to resist the lure of lying flat on fluffy fur, Phin did lowering himself to his belly and turned his face towards Jake.

“You know…don’t you?” Phin was so unsure how Jake would react that his voice came out all husky, hesitant. While he was quite convinced he knew how Jack felt—Jake didn’t tend to do singing from the same hymn sheet—the daftest turn o’phrase Phin had rustled up yet.

“Yes.” Jake’s swallow sounded so dry it did scraping up his throat. “I’m so sorry, Phin. I should be shot.”

“Jake…I’m glad,” Phin did reassuring him, lifting his hand to trail his fingertips down the gleaming gold of Jake’s chest. Twitches of pleasure did skittering across its surface as his eyes sighed shut, despite himself.

“You won’t be…then you’ll hate me for it.” His voice was a rasp of velcro rather than velvet. Another whiff of vinegar assailed Phin’s nostrils.

“I could kill for some chips,” Phin admitted, before adding, “Yes, I will…and won’t do hating you. Ever.”

“You can’t say that…you don’t know.”

“I just did saying it…and I do. I could never hate you, even if you didn’t fancy your bone much and did shredding me with your teefs. So that’s that.”

What the—? You’ve just realised that I’ve turned you into a mangy mutt! How the hell can you insist you won’t hate me for it, so that’s that!?

“Eew…I hope I haven’t got mange. It sounds scratchy…ah well, never mind. I will be able to do licking my balls, that should prove plenty distracting.“

Oh fuck…” Jake’s shoulders started doing shaking when a chuckle bubbled up—despite himself—which seemed to be his contrary response to all sorts o’stuff. Quite how he managed to do so much despiting was a mystery. He was forever contradicting himself in a loopy loop of lunacy. Jake should have been a werewolf, so persuasive was the sway of all things lunar upon his person. Phin didn’t say any o’that aloud. He had bigger fishes to fry.

“Yes please.” Phin grinned.

“What? Again?” Jake’s jaw did dropping a tad.

“I find I’m feeling peckish already.”

“You need food first,” Jake stated, spearing Phin with a steely glint of silvery blue.

Then you’ll do filling me up in a more fun way?” 

“Yes…” Jake sighed and did rolling his eyes, as if he was hard done to.

“It’s a good job I know you’re doing pretending, or I’d be most miffed. I can’t help it, it’s your fault.”

“I know… and I’ll never forgive myself,” Jake snarled. The snarl was self directed, the words were wafted Phin’s way.  

“You’re bonkers…you can’t blame yourself for having the lushest tush on the planet. You didn’t do picking it from a line up of best bums, y’daftie. It was bestowed on you, so you’ll just have to do making the best of it.

“F’chrissakes, I wasn’t thinking about my arse.”

“I was…it’s one of my favourite things in the world to do thinking of. Anyhoo, I already told you that I hoped to turn Foxy and I wasn’t doing fibbing. I meant it.”

“Why the hell would you want that?” Jake snapped.

“So I can be with you…in every way. Both ways. Always. Can we have sex, d’you think?”

“What now? I told you…food f—”

“Noo…when I’m in foxy form.” Phin interrupted.

“God, I hope so…” Jake groaned.

“Hah!”

“What’s hah!?” 

“See…you do want me to be foxy,” Phin grinned with glee.

“How the hell d’you work that out?” Jake growled, the blue ablaze with outrage. Hmm…

Phin was a fast learner. Except for stuff he couldn’t do learning at all. Like logic. He didn’t mention that, he was too busy frying fishes. “Easy. You said: I hope so. If a part of you didn’t secretly want me to be foxy, you would never have said that—longingly—the way you did. The very thought would have done affronting your…honour.”

Honour!? If I was honourable, I would never have laid a finger on you.”

“That’s bollocks. Blimey, I seem to be doing lots of thinking about balls. Odd that. I agree with Jack.”

“What?” Jake spluttered, as if he’d gone deaf, all of a sudden.

“I’m with Jack. It’s a Gift.” 

A Gift!? I don’t know where the fuck to begin. It’s NOT a gift, it’s a goddamn curse. You agree with him…how the—?” Jack abruptly ran out of steam, as if his brain was too taxed to do cobbling words together. He sprang to his feet in a flash and stomped to a coffee table by the sofa, upon which sat a bottle of whiskey.

Phin had been too distracted to do thinking about a drink…but now that he had thought about it, his thirst was so intense he could glug The Albion dry. Jake glanced over—as if Phin had uttered that aloud—then gave the lid a swift twist before lobbing the bottle at him.

Next thing Phin knew, he’d snatched it out of the air and seemed to be kneeling up, rather than lying on the rug. He must have done shoving himself up so sharpish he missed that part. It was all a bit of a blur.

“Thank you,” Phin grinned, unscrewing the strewth its tight lid for a quick guzzle. Jack winked when their eyes did locking, but Phin still saw the flick of a honeyed wrist in his peripheral vision. He shot an arm up to catch the tumbler hurtling his way—without looking—still ensnared by bewitching blue. “Strewth…d’you think I could play in goal for Plymouth Argyle?”

“You might want to acquaint yourself with your strength first, or you’ll take out half the team when you lob the ball back into play,” Jake’s chuckle was gruff rumble of sound so luscious Phin wanted to do licking it. He was finding it even harder to do concentrating than usual. His marbles were skittering hither ‘n’ thither, his focus tugged in different directions, trying to absorb the scents, tastes, sounds besieging him. It was a very lot of too much to do taking in at once.

Jack came and sat down, then did leaning against the armchair with his legs stretched out on the rug. They looked as if it had been glazed in golden syrup and sprinkled with silky hair. Phin wanted to lick those too…and very much more. He hoped Jack wasn’t planning on doing cooking, or he might starve to death. Twice.

Phin…” His name was a warning growl.

What!?”

“Food. First.”

“That’s not fair. I didn’t say a thing.”

“It was hardly necessary,” he huffed.

“Crikey.” Phin blinked, looking down. He had his very own jack-in-the-box cock. How splendid.

“That’s the least of it. I’d know if I was standing in the kitchen. I can smell you.”

“What do I smell of?”

“Lust, longing. Need, which is torture,” he groaned.

“Torture?”

“Not acting on it. Jack…knows and he’s…fuck!

Phin’s guts spasmed with a shaft of pain alongside Jake’s curse, which came accompanied by scrunched eyes and a sharp hiss of air sucked through gritted teeth. Phin wasn’t even sure whose pain it was. He could do sensing Jack’s…frustration, which didn’t seem daft; his instincts always told him stuff, but never in a way that clawed his insides as proper pain. Scratchiness was different, that didn’t do hurting; it made him want to claw his skin off, but that was a consequence, not a cause. 

Phin crawled across the rug to Jake and found himself sitting astride his lap, arms wrapped around his neck, before he’d done wondering if it was wise. Why bother? He had to comfort Jake, it was a twin-tug on his heartstrings; Jack needed him too. He’d been trying to do far too much thinking, which always made him make muddles.

Instead of fretting about making Jake miffy and upsetting Jack, he should do following his instincts. They never did faltering or faffing about. Stuff would become so much simpler if Phin just did doing.

 

***

 

Jake

 

Jake wondered if his brain might blow up when his skull could no longer contain the chaos; there were too many conflicting emotions waging war in there. The predominant one being guilt. Guilt as vicious as a steel-jaw trap, having done the very thing he’d feared most. A crime so unspeakably selfish that Jake should, by rights, be skinned alive. Shooting would be too quick—too painless—and more to the point, he’d probably survive it. 

Murdering Phin would have been less despicable. Death would have been more merciful than the life he’d damned Phin to. A knowledge Jake would have to live for the duration of his, having forfeited the freedom of revenge. His penance would abandon Phin to the fate they’d forced on him; the one act more cruel than the future Jake had condemned him to.

‘I’m glad…I could never hate you…So that’s that.’

Three pearls of wisdom from Planet Phin. A world of whimsy where forgetting was an art form that defied all reason why, or why not. Jake knew full well that Phin believed every word that flitted from his lips, even when he was ‘doing fibbing’. A fact as unfeasible as it was accurate. 

Phin’s assertion was honest—his scent unsullied by deception—he was telling his own truth. He hadn’t said it to comfort Jake, or in an effort to salve his guilt. The reason Phin gave for being ‘glad’ was the most horrifying of all:

‘So’s I can be with you…in every way. Both ways. Always.’

Phin, quite possibly, envisioned their jackals scampering off into the sunset together, serenaded by pan-pipes. How the hell could he want to suffer Jake? He wouldn’t wish himself on his worst enemy; no one deserved that fate less than Phin. Not even as a furry friend, let alone the ‘mate’ Jack was hell-bent on believing he’d found. Scented a kindred spirit on the wind, or some such nonsense.

Scoff ye not, you upstart. You know damn well what you sensed. 

Kinship? We’re not related.

You’re not human either. So why cite such an irrelevance? Kinship, soulmate, bondmate, mate-mate, whatever. ‘Life partner’ if you prefer a pastel rose by any other name. Take your pick. Then you might want to do remembering that You fell in love, so suck it up.

In love? You can’t just declare that as ‘fact’ in so few days. Particularly after bastardising Shakespeare.

Can and did. I scented a kindred spirit on the wind or some such nonsense, don’t forget. So you took your time, tardy arse. 

Three years is taking my time, not three bloody days. It’s too soon to claim something so ludicrous. I can’t go there—

Too constipated, that’s why.  

What the hell am I supposed to infer from that?

Y’should eat more sausages? 

Ha. Ha.

Sorry, it was irresistible. Like sausages. I meant: you’re too bunged up with crap to go. ‘There’. 

Very funny.

No, it’s not. Still true, though.

Could you possibly look more satisfied with yourself? Don’t answer that.

*

I’m with Jack. It’s a Gift.”

Setting aside the fact Phin had declared it a gift, rather than a curse…how did he know that Jack insisted this? Jake had no idea what Phin thought about fuck all…although he could sort of tell how Phin felt. But that was based on instinct and scent, not intuition so astute it was absolute.

Phin’s reflexes were astounding. Jake had never seen anyone move as fast as Phin had snatched the bottle from the air…but then, Jake had never watched himself. Excepting the part it was impossible to ignore when that sprang to attention…a party trick Phin had already nailed, with alacrity.

They would barely be able to leave the house if this kept…up. A fact Jake would welcome, if not for a very real responsibility to Phin. Jake could not fail him, Jack could not facilitate that failure. It would be a dereliction of duty. Downright neglect of the man they would die for. The least they could do was pave a way for him to live.

It was impossible to tell if Phin’s…Phinness would prove a positive or negative factor. He didn’t seem to give a shit about participating in ‘society’, he just pottered around doing… Phin things. So how the hell was Jake supposed to prepare him for something he was never a part of in the first place? Purely because Jake deemed it his ‘responsibility’? Surely that would make him as guilty as those who’d tried and failed to chip away his too muchness? Hadn’t doing just that been their ‘responsibility’ too?

Phin would have every right to resent him for even attempting something Jake had no wish to do. All of which left one road clear for Phin’s campervan. A singular raison d’être for Jake. Be there for him. Help Phin come to terms with it on his own terms, ensure that he felt as comfy in fur as his skin.

They’re both ‘his’, numbnuts. 

I know they are, he’s hardly going to wear yours, is he?

Ours. Your pronouns are offensive, you should be shot. By the PC police.

Oh, shut up…If there’s ‘something you’ve been meaning to mention’…? I’m not that big a bastard. I’d bite my tongue off before misgendering you—

Us. You’re at it again…so y’can shove respecting my identity where the sun don’t shine. While you’re at it, ask Phin to explain ‘exception that proves the rule’. That’ll justify your belief in honouring folk’s pronounsapart from oursyou pillock. By the way, I’m somehow certain ‘your’ tongue is as safe as the part you were particularly  fond of, half an hour ago. Odd that.

Why the hell did I get saddled with the most pedantic and cussed critter on the planet?

No idea, we’re sure…

 

 

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